motivations

Pre pandemic: Living and working with a sort of bottomless despair, due mostly in part to forces out of my control. Getting slowly crushed by this gargantuan boulder. Post pandemic: the social acceptance of these types of feelings are expected and welcome. Like I got to class 20 min early.. I read at one point that Lars von trier had a theory relating to tragedy and depression, that depressed people can cope more successfully with these earth shattering events.
What state of horror eventually brings peace? Do the replacement of these horrors bring the peace due to the ability to recognize relativity?

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